life's a peach...sorta

today...right now, i'm really wishing baby were here. i really want to hold baby in my arms. i'm getting so impatient for baby to come. i still have 6 months left. :(  i just hope they fly by as fast as the last 6 months did.

no, don't tell me i really don't wish that and that i'll wish for them to go slow so i can prepare and whatever...don't tell me that. just let me wish for baby to be here right now. thanks.

p.s. i don't want any advice on this post. just smiles and understanding. ya know?

 ...i'm going to go have a peach now. :)

this is the photographer i want to be someday. soon. {HERE}

a strange but wonderful but horrible summer.

i want to go swimming. and camping. and bonfire-ing. and hiking. and BOATING. i feel like i've had a very abnormal summer. all i've done is vomit and sleep and get married. haha. don't get me wrong. this has be THE BEST SUMMER. i mean come on. i got married to mick. he's pretty awesome. i went to mexico. i made a baby. i went to hawaii. i got a puppy of my VERY own. i've had wonderful experiences in the temple. i've been close enough to my family that i've been able to celebrate all birthdays and some fun things with them! yeah, it's been such a great summer.
but strange too. i've spent the last few summers camping, hiking, going to bonfires, and boating. mick and i were going over our budget for when we get back to utah. it's going to be tight. we've all of a sudden realized that we are truly grown ups. we cant just spend our money's whenever we like and on whatever we like. that is a strange feeling too. but soooo exciting to really start our very own FAMILY. it feels even more official now that we've begun a budget. haha. does any of this even make sense? 


we go back to utah the day after tomorrow. i cry when i think about it too much. i will miss being close to my family. it'll be hard to experience my first pregnancy so far from my mother and sisters (and daddy too!). good think i love mick's family sooo much! :) 


well, i'm off. i really need to get this packing done. is it bad that i'm leaving all the dirty dishes for mick? we did make a deal that if he does the dishes i'll do everything else. lol. maybe i'm not the best wifey after all... dang. 

time to grow up jessica!

I have about 192 days to grow up...

I'm serious! I can't behave like a child when I'm suppose to be a parent. Here is how I came to this conclusion of why I haven't grown up yet...ready? It's very embarrassing.

So the plan was to meet my mother at the temple at 10:30 this morning. I woke up at 8:30 and started to get ready. I ate some cinnamon toast right away hoping my morning sickness would be just a temporary thing. I took a nice and long, relaxing shower hoping that would help as well.

My tummy was upset but I was very determined to go. I got dressed and got my stuff all ready. I took a few sips of water and just as I was about to leave I realized I was throwing up in my mouth. I barely made it to the bathroom sink. I threw up all my toast and all my water. I knew I wouldn't make it to the temple so I had Mick call my mother.

I could here him telling her I wasn't going to make it due to being sick. I threw up again then started crying. I was SOOOOOOOOOOO frustrated and so disappointed.

That is when I became childish (note: "childish" is a lot different the being "child-like").

I threw a tantrum. Yes. A tantrum.

I kicked the bathroom cupboard 3 times. Stomped my foot. Hit the sink. And I was about to literally scream out loud when Mick knocked on the door and came in. I realized how ridiculous I was being and just cried into his shoulder. I felt so helpless and was so sad. Its so frustrating to me sometimes. Not only do I hate throwing up more than anything but I wanted so badly to go spend a morning with my mother in the temple.

Mick was wonderful and did his best to comfort me. I have a great husband. :) We watched The Office until his meeting. It helped to take my mind off of my upset tummy. I calmed down and am realizing it really isn't the end of the world. I'm going to have a baby. Sickness is just part of the deal.

Why am I blogging about my embarrassing tantrum. Hahahahaha! Because I can laugh about it now! Lol. I hope you get a little laugh from my childish behavior today. hehe. I feel a little better this evening. I had some life cereal for dinner. I'm hoping it stays down! I'm also hoping that this random act of tantrum-ing was because of my raging hormones due to being preggers.

PLEASE tell me it was. ;) LOL

baby fat or just fat fat?

getting bigger every day! sometimes i think that it's not all baby, just fat because i've eaten so much these past couple weeks! Lol. either way, it's exciting! :D

the jessica's are uniting!

mick and jessica. jessica and aj.

what?!

hehe. mick and one of his co-workers {aj} have become great friends. aj conveniently has a wife. ;) her name is jessica. jessica and i have become great friends too! we had them over one night, one thing led to another and we have had them over almost every other night! it's been so much fun having another married couple to hang out with. the coolest part, we will still get to hang out when we all make our move back to utah (in about a week and a half!).

jessica and i were able to go to the portland temple together yesterday. it is always such a blessing to be able to go to that wonderful place! i was sick in the morning then felt better by lunch time and stayed well until we left the temple grounds! i did have to pull over and have jessica drive the rest of the way home. sheesh! i did really good and didn't throw up until i got into my apt. ...i didn't quite make it to the toilet but at least i didn't have to throw up in front of my friend! lol. i have to keep telling myself "this will go away eventually. even if i'm sick my whole pregnacy i will be done with that in about 7 months". goodness i hope i'm not throwing up for the next seven months. the last two have been more than enough!

i am very grateful the Lord has blessed mick and i with friends who have the same standards as we do and who help us live them. we finally are breaking in our games that have been gathering dust these last couple of months. i was wondering why the heck we even brought so many up! but i'm soooo glad we did!

mick and i both are looking forward to more fun times ahead!

maybe i'll start posting photos again of our life. haha. for now you'll have to go check out my facebook. i'm good at keeping photos updated on there!

tomorrow is friday!!!! it will be my 12 week mark! I can't believe baby will be 10 weeks old! which also means mick and i will have been married for 10 weeks! woohoohoo! time is flying! but at least we're having a great time and making the most of our days (except when i'm sick. then poor mick is forced to play his xbox to keep himself busy while i have my head buried half way down the toilet bowl. i don't think he minds most of time though. lol. )

tears of joy...?????

you know you're pregnant when you cry for the people who win a huge prize on the price is right. hahaha. this is so ridiculous! i'm so glad i can laugh at myself. goodness.

No Doubting those blue lines...

Well, these past few days have been pretty great! I've been feeling hungry A LOT! Which is good considering I've been feeling sick for the past month and a half. Goodness! I'm seeing the effects of actually eating on my body. My waistline is GONE! It's a strange thing to see a thick waisted Jessica instead of slim waisted Jessica. It's all for a good cause though, right? LOL. If you haven't already guessed by now, Mick and I are going to have a baby! Woohoohoo! "WHAT?" You might be thinking. Or maybe, "Wait, how long have you been married?". Or even, "You're CRAZY for getting pregnant so soon!". Well all I'm going to say is that Mick and I worked so hard to make it to the temple for our marriage. We promised to do the Lord's will and plan. He obviously wants us to have a baby. I mean come on. It's not like we were trying to get preggers. It just happened. We're both extremely excited for baby to come join our family! Having a baby will only bless our lives. I'm so happy that we can see the Lord's hand in our life. I'm not going to lie, having a child changes "our" plans up a bit. I still haven't finished school. I don't want to even think about that yet...is that okay? I decided in church today that I really just want to focus on baby and my husband right now. Why stress myself out when it is so obvious that this is what I'm suppose to be doing. I've always had a natural talent and a gift with children. I am just a natural mother. I can't explain the way I feel about a child. I just automatically am filled with love. My mother told me the other day that when she see's me with a child she can feel the spirit! What a compliment! I needed to hear that so much. Being a mother scares me a little bit. I guess because we were not planning on becoming parents so soon I didn't really prepare my mind. But hearing my mother say that about me made me realize that all I need is to do is keep the Lord's commandments and He'll help me the rest of the way. He has always done that for me. I am falling in love with my baby more and more every day! I love seeing my growing tummy. I love reading about my growing baby. Right now at 11 weeks pregnant (baby is 9 weeks old. And Yes, this is a honeymoon baby. Don't judge! LOL), baby has all it finger nails and is growing down-like hair. I cannot wait until I can go to the doctor and hear the heartbeat! And find out if its a girl or boy! (I'm pretty sure its a girl). Mick and I sometimes lay in bed and think about all the names we like. We haven't found one we're loving just yet. Mick is so wonderful! He continues to make me laugh and love me unconditionally. He gives baby kisses through my tummy and gets excited to see me getting bigger. I just LOVE LOVE LOVE my Mick so much! He's been so great about this whole situation. He always is there to comfort me when I have my emotional break downs about parenthood. He tells me that it'll be alright and that he is so excited and I should be too! Hehe. He'll be a wonderful Daddy. I am a lucky girl! Life is crazy sometimes. I still have moments where I just have to sit down and be amazed at how my life has turned out so far. I'm married to an amazing man. And not until "death do you part", but for all of time and eternity. I'm going to have a baby. This baby will be born in the covenant! WOW! I'm so happy! It feels good to tell people flat out that there's a bun in the oven! I'm getting close to my 2nd trimester. I can't wait until its just obvious I'm pregnant. hehe.

I love that there was no doubting those double blue lines. haha. We took this test the day after we got back from our Utah reception.